i do apologize for the lack of writing. (sounds like the feb 28, 2011 post again)
i'm actually still stuck on the same issue and i cannot explain how much it has affected me.
the death of a friend so close and with a disease that i myself have been through. it's still reverberating in me and in my life and it still triggers a lot of emotions.
he didn't make it and for me, more and more i realize how much of a close call it was. and yes, it makes me scared despite it being in the past and despite me being alive now. i feel like we can only be happy for having survived something after being conscious of what it really was.
i'm still in shock that he died
and
how close i came to it as well.
i'll get back on track though and i'll come back to blogging.
please, be patient.
