100percentjulie

new outlooks and perceptions. the present just kicked me in the face last week and i realized that, in a way, the future is now. i stopped thinking about and planning for later years. "after i find the someone i wanna be with..." "when i start getting the salary i want..." how about now? how about 5, 10 years from now and i'm still living in this apartment with my cat as a single woman? am i okay with that? i'm starting to think that i am, if only i let go and enjoy it. 

if today, one of my biggest pleasures in my life is from my friends, then that's what i want to cultivate. i have to appreciate and live what is positive now. my cat. my apartment. my pepper plant that is doing so well. 

i feel that if we don't fit the models, stereotypes, we are used to, we think that we'll change in the future and fit the mold later. but by doing that, we don't let go of what we're going through now and we don't realize (i don't sometimes, at least) that what we have now is already great! 

by realizing that then, i will start committing only to things that depend on me. i will "invest" less of myself when there are more variables involved so i can be happy now. that's my solution. 

i'm glad and i feel good for being so productive today in thinking and in doing. today's accomplishments: learned 3 new ways of bookbinding, finished and printed new business cards. enough of focusing on what i don't have. i prefer the opposite. i'll focus on the now and on the things i can have because i will put my self into it. ooh... feel even closer to 100% myself.

CURRENTLY READING:

~ special topics of calamity physics by marisha pessl

CURRENTLY ON TELEVISION: 

~ two and a half men