i wish i were a chimp today. i feel the need to focus. if i focus, i'll have more time for myself. why are there games in life? are there games like these in the animal kingdom? why can't we be straight forward honest simple and sincere with people? a lot of people claim, and i've seen it happen, that if we do that, people will take u for granted. they do. in portuguese we say "ficam acomodados." in my head, in whatever planet i come from, if someone's good for me, i will like that person and i will want to spend more time with him/her. apparently, life's not that simple and i just don't get it. my logic is: if "A" is nice (to put it in very small terms, to simplify for argument's sake) to me, then i'll value "A" and want to do it back to them so i can reciprocate the sweetness.
the way this world works, apparently, is: "A" says he/she likes u but has more important things in his/her mind. u like him/her even more. ...
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wait - what?
how does that make any sense? what is this based on? is there anything to do with competition? something primitive here? does anyone have a good read on this so i can try to understand? i don't get the logic. and ps: that makes life so complicated when things can be so simple...
is it better to play the game (do i have to play the game?) or can i be honest and transparent with people? how about in relationships?
sometimes, this feels too difficult...
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