philosophical thinking this morning... thinking about trust and faith in life. having faith that it'll all be alright in the end. that u can trust life and it'll be good to u. thinking that i feel u don't have any control over it. i tried the best i could when i went through some difficulty, when i went through cancer, but it didn't get me anywhere. life is bigger and it's not up to us, sometimes. i feel like i'm sorta saying that i don't believe in fairies. i'm sorry but no, i don't. i used to, definitely. but i sorta lost the magic somewhere. i wish i could and i will change my perspective because i also do understand that it's all about perspective, but it's really hard and i'm now choosing to deal with it.in german, as a friend put it, "gebranntes kind scheut das feuer." no, i don't speak german either. so translation: burned child is afraid of fire. that's exactly how i feel.
